And, anyway, even that concession (that I’m a layabout, or an idler) wouldn’t answer the question of how I ‘survive’, or ‘get by’. That question would have to remain unanswered. Or be answered only by revealing to you my sources of income, which I certainly could do, but which I hesitate to do, or am loath to do, as these are things I’d regard as too personal, even as entries in a diary.