The fact is, I suppose, that if I believe the Church to have been entrusted with certain truths, and with the dispensing of certain graces that cannot be found elsewhere, and that do not represent merely another variation on the many religions and systems of belief that humankind has articulated, throughout the ages, and that some would regard as equal, or interchangeable (and that might even, in some cases, bring upon the soul an order, tranquility, and virtuousness that puts it on a path to salvation), I cannot, in good faith, pretend as though her exigencies do not apply to me, even if, in various ways, the failures of those who have misrepresented her, at different moments in history, have caused suffering.